So Thankful

I am so thankful to call Josh my HUSBAND! He lifts me up on so many levels. He has helped me come closer in my faith with Christ and realize I need the Lord more than ever in our relationship. Whenever I get down and hurt, Josh reminds me that we still need to keep our faith in the Lord. He is so positive in so many ways and also when I am in so many ways a negative person. It has been a rough week, our car acting up. I feel like a failure. I purchased this car in 2008 paying it off in only year=total of $9,500.00 thinking that it is a good car and I put a lot of money into it that it should do me good and not fail. Well about $3,000.00 later in repairs and lots of crying over this car. I am at a loss of words. Why Why WHy? are my questions I ask my self. I spent already all so much, why is the car failing me still. Is the Lord testing me. Cause if he is, this is surely a tough test. I had a near anxiety attack just yesterday after we just put all our savings into the repair we had done yesterday and come to find out we get it back and it is in worse shape than when we took it in. ??? Why is this happening, I ask. I gave all our money to this car and now its worse. Josh sees me in this pain and it hurts him. I feel so weak and want to be strong in his and the Lords eyes. I need strength right now and its going to take a lot of patience to realize what the Lord has in store for us. But I have to have this trust in the Lord, though it is so tough. It is out of my hands now and the Lord is taking over. Josh came home last night from a meeting that he had with his team mates from school with a rose and a card. I smiled so big. In the midst of all these horrible things, he still has his passion for me and loves me no MATTER what we go through. Oh Lord I thank you so much for this man I call my Husband.
The Card read:
My Love,
In this hectic life,
we can never seem
to talk,
touch,
and share
as much
as we want to...
But time
never goes by
so quickly
that I don't stop
and think of you,
and smile...
...and fell glad
that we're together.
I LOVE YOU,

::it is tough darlin' but I love you so much and don't ever forget it.
it'll get better "scouts honor"
Love your hubby::

He always seems to know the right things to say....

I know things will get better, they ALWAYS DO!