Conversation

I love the conversations me and my little girl have every day. If I could remember them all I would have a book of laughter!
Adrianna is 4 years old and she is my little princess! I thank the Lord every day for giving me her and giving me the responsibility to take care of her. She has given me so much inspiration watching her grow. I was going through a lot emotional downfalls by the time I got pregnant with her. Suicide was in mind and it was horrible. I was not in a good place in my life. I already had a son who was at the time 15 months when I got pregnant and the father and I were not on good terms. I then became a pregnant single mother with a toddler in tow. I held on strong though. Towards the end of pregnancy I thought about adoption for her. It was too hard to imagine. I always wanted a little girl. It took me 2 hours to decide that I was going to keep her with me. I started to look online about adoption for her. I didn't know how I was going to handle being a single mother with 2 children. It was already hard enough with one.
About 2 hours after reading profiles and learning about adoption, I decided it just wasn't right for me. I kept her. I thank the Lord everyday to allowing me to keep her and raise her. Thinking about the decision that I had made then gives me tears and I am so glad I made that decision. She saved my life. When asked on occasions "Who is your Hero?" I answer without hesitation, "my daughter!"
I love both my children with all my heart can desire, and I know the Lord loves them more than I can imagine.
Thank you JESUS!

Day to day she says the cutest things, what kid doesn't?

Me: So Anna, Where are we going?
Anna: umm... Church!
Me: Yup! Do you know who Jesus is?
Anna: umm... Our friend?
Me: hahaha, yes he is dear! He is also our Savior.


Anna: Mamma..?
Me: yes dear?
Anna: Snakes can't kill worms.
Me: what makes you say that?
Anna: The don't have guns. They don't have arms to hold the guns.
Me: hmm.. interesting, and yes you are right they don't have arms, but they can eat worms!

Anna: Mommy.....
Me: yes anna?
Anna: I looooooooooooooooooove you!
Me: I love you too!

The morning rain clouds up my window

Making break-through's and facing challenges.
Recovery in effect. School is tightening and loosing up.
Work is in the mist.
Sometimes I wonder why I reach out the door and face the music.
The rain hits the window sill and it's calming for the future of the day.
Morning dew turns against the sun and melting away the surface of the glare.
Laughing and crying.
Smelling and tasting.
Two more pages turned and listening to the earth's hiccups.
Weak in the knees and pain in the forehead.
The light is now off and dreamland focuses in.

Adoption

I started a Adoption Blog on Adoption Voices. Check it out if you want!!!
http://adoptionvoices.com/profile/CarolMarie

New Life

Today I am excited about my new life about to happen before me.
Things are changing fast and yet stay steady.

Today,